weekend downs and ups

i didn't sleep much this weekend, not because of the gobbles man, but due to the rising anxiety level starting in the pit of my stomach. i'm sure most of this is because the clock is ticking on going back to work, but the rest is the worry over late summer, when i'll be so busy my head will surely take off in another dimension. i love to anticipate stress - a major part of my problem is when things are uncertain and i don't have a grasp on them yet, i tend to freak out a bit inside until they's set.

i have 4 weddings over a span if 8 weeks between august and october of this year, plus another in november for good measure. and two, those of my sister and sister-in-law, are as important to me as my own was. along with these events of course come showers, bachelor / bachelorette parties, , etc. and somewhere in that mix add two baby showers as well. now, i am not complaining at all - in fact, i LOVE events like this and wish they could be all the time, but i'm also the type of person who hates saying no and missing out on the fun. with all of this happening in such a short time, i'm afraid of overlap and not being able to please everyone. and on top of this - hello - how do i keep my then 9 months old son, who will be in daycare full time, reminded that he does have a mommy who loves him very much, if i'll be doing something every weekend for months?

and it's already begun - hubs has a bachelor party the night of one of the weddings. the party is for one of his college buddies, who he was so close to at one point that he was actually in our wedding. do i be a good wife and let him go, and i take on the wedding alone? the wedding is that of a cousin who i'm not that close with anyway. or do i put my foot down and demand that the whole reason i got married was never having to go solo? i made a deal with him - he can go to the party if he drives to the wedding i choose so i can let loose and have a few. see - i'm easy to please.

now that all that mash is out of my head - onto what made this weekend great overall!

1. at weight watchers i made my first weight goal! after gaining 45 lbs (ugh) during pregnancy, i had a lot of work to do. i started ww at 5 weeks postpartum, already down 16 lbs from my peak baby weight (so preggers me minus giant baby, placenta, and fluid, plus dozens of christmas cookies). this weekend, 9 weeks later, i weighed in at 17 lbs less than that (total down 33). this weight is a milestone to me because i've been here before. before i got pregnant i was on ww, and this was my starting weight. so now i'm psyched because i KNOW my body can change from this. i've got 2 more goals - 12 lbs - the weight i was when i got pregnant. and 20 lbs - the ww lifetime member goal. can't wait!

2. i had so much fun dress shopping and lunching with the aforementioned sister and the bridal party. and we extended the day into family dinner at her house to celebrate her birthday! gobbles came to the second half of the festivities and was in a good mood - always making things better. it was just a great day of family QT which i don't realize i miss until we get to hang out.

3. we got to meet the latest addition to our family of friends, a beautiful little girl just 2 weeks old now. her momma is looking fabulous, and her daddy is overjoyed, brimming with excitement, and spewing information from various parenting magazines. if you know him, you'd expect nothing less from him! their lil peanut is so adorable, and so alert and active already. we all got a good laugh at the giant gobbles sitting next to her, thinking about how there is so much growing in the first few months.

4. i had not one but two soccer games, one at which i had a goal! don't laugh, goals are so rare for me that i actually jumped up and said "oh yay!" like a giddy 8 year old after i scored. but more importantly, soccer provides the escape i need each week to shake out my mind and body of whatever is weighing me down. i come home with that good kind of sore, and a few bruises, re-energized and ready to face the week.

so, if you've made it to the end of this post, you'll see that despite the goings on in my head, i'd definitely call this weekend a success. in fact, all of the 'downs' have nothing to do with the weekend at all, just some points in the future, and when they actually occur will be 'ups' anyway! well, this blogger has just learned over the course of composing this post - stop worrying about the future, things will work out as they will. concentrate on the present, because it's just awesome.